Letting Go

img_0087-1People think of failure as the end.

It isn’t.

It’s a chance to start again.

I’ve always been the kind of person who has several projects going at once.  When I was younger, I had the energy for lots of things, but not the time.  The older I get, the more time I have, but the less energy.

So, that means I sometimes have to admit defeat.  Not every project I start will get completed.

And that’s okay.

Failure is how we learn.  My most recent failure taught me that starting over is okay.

Over a year ago, I started to crochet an afghan for my mother-in-law.  It’s a simple pattern, and one I’ve made before, so I know I can do it.  However, this time the pattern was giving me fits.

Every row it seemed like my stitch count got off somehow and I would have to rip it out and start over.  I finally got through about 25 rows.

Or so I thought.

On row 26, suddenly my stitch count was off again, and I couldn’t figure out where.  After ripping out several rows and still finding myself off, I decided to put the project aside for a while.

Fast forward to last week, when I finally picked it up again.  (That old adage – “Out of sight, out of mind” – is apparently true.)

I still couldn’t figure out where I was off.  So I decided to admit defeat.  My frustration with the whole thing was exacerbated by the fact that I didn’t have enough skeins of matching yarn to finish anyway. (I kept telling myself I’d go buy the rest, but I never did.)

So I sat down and unraveled the whole thing.  I now have a large 3-skein ball of yarn.  I don’t, however, have a barely done afghan sitting in my office taunting me.  And when I was done rolling up the yarn, I actually felt better.

I made a decision about the project and now I am able to let the guilt about not completing it go.  My mother-in-law didn’t even know I was making it, so the only person it was bothering was me.  And frankly, I have better ways I can spend my time than feeling guilty.

So if you find yourself lamenting a project you haven’t completed, think about why you are hanging on to it.  Is it because you truly want to work on it? Probably not, or you would have completed it.

In the words of everyone’s favorite ice princess – Let it go! 😀

Success!

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I’m feeling pretty proud of myself today.  For the last 9 years or so, it’s been a project of mine to scan in all our old family photos.

All of them.  :/

It started out with a small box and then the pile just kept getting bigger.  And the bigger the pile got, the further the project moved down on my to-do list.  I mean, some of the photos are so old I don’t even know who the people are in them.  So unless there are names on the back, I haven’t got a clue.

While I was off this summer, I made a list of projects I wanted to try and complete.  The photo scanning was one of them.  I started off with the most recent ones – the ones that were me and my kids, and then worked my way backwards in time.

And I’m done!

I have a pile of photos for each of my siblings (all extras of the scanned photos) and the rest are stored away in photo albums after scanning.  Why store them after scanning?  I don’t know.  I mean, that was the original intention – scan them so that I could have a digital copy rather than a physical one.

But I just couldn’t bring myself to destroy them.  Trashing photos of my kids or family members seemed wrong.  So, I have both – a digital and physical copy.  But now they’re not sitting around in a box in the floor of my closet, so I’m calling it a success!